beacaptain:

sometimes, i have this fantasy.

i’m attractive

        sexy

            thin

—worthy of a glance, or maybe even a second glance.

a second glance—

    the hot girls get offended.

    the ugly girls get off.

WHAT AM I?

a hypocrite, that’s what.

fat positive      +

afraid of my own weight.

leave me alone//

IT’S NOT AS EASY AS YOU CLAIM

to be beautiful.

if i could be beautiful,

     i would be.

i would do anything.

          but that’s not who i am

NO FAKING

i’m me.

that’s your problem.

shades of green/
your jealousy eats you alive.

i saw in your eyes,
the other night
the insanity glaring up at me.
a handle deep and forty dollars short,
green gone to eat your envy,
but,
like a monster rising from the deep
it has claimed your soul as its to keep.
pride goes before a fall,
and envy after,
and then the carrion circle around
and again you might be found.
skin and bones,
fleshed out memories feasting
for you
at you
inside you.